Why…

**Edited** because I can.. and because I was confused reading back through it and I wrote it!

The big why…

Yesterday it was… Why does life have to be so hard? Which really means.. Amanda, stop making life hard for yourself.

Why yes, I do have a flair for drama. My life is far from bad — its actually very blessed. There are most certainly those who have much worse problems then me (there always will be).. Unfortunately, those things don’t matter in the middle of the storm that goes on in my head and heart.

In light of that.. Why do I fear what man may do to me? Right? Easy to say.. Hard to practice when you depend on others to keep you encouraged or on the right path. Man will always fail and to put them on a platform of that magnitude never proves to be good for them, or for you. They will fall, you will be disappointed. It’s an unfair expectation, friends…

Confession time: I will avoid saying it is in my nature to want everyone to like me and for there to be no conflict. Its not who I am, but something I have learned to do.. It is not on everyone else to change, but for me to accept that there will be conflict, some people may not like me, but if I’m being who I’m supposed to be, it’s ok.

It is ok.

Excelsior (Google it)